Internet is back up so I figured that I would let you know what's going on. I'm still in Iraq and people are still getting on my nerves. It kinda sucks that I have only one friend out here (and he's not the type of person that you can talk to about what's bothering you) all my other friends are out of reach. You know that feeling that you get when you just want to cry. Well, I've had that feeling for about 2 and a half months now and I don't have anyone. I miss my mom and I just want to see her one last time. I guess that I feel responsible, if I would have been at home on leave like I was supposed to be, the accident would have never happened and she would be waiting for me to come home. Words cannot express the emptiness that I feel without her.
decided to update today since i can't sleep (for 3 days in a row).I work nights so I sleep during the day the bad part is that the generators are out and it is litterally 137 degrees F in my tent that kind of makes it a little difficult to sleep without drowning in your own sweat.
anywho, it's going alright over here and i found out that i should be leaving right on schedule. some of the people i work with are starting to get on my nerves. constant bickering really pisses me off. They irratate me in the same way that my 7 y/o brother used to irratate me. constantly whining and bitching, out here there's not much anyone can do about it so why waste your breath whining. Maybe it's just being around the same exact people for the last 4 months and we're starting to get tired of each other.
Business has been slow. That's good in my line of work. God I can't wait to get home. This place is ok but it gets very old very quickly. It's worse than okinawa. I miss all my friends. But other than that I'm doing good.
Back in Iraq ater 2 glorious weeks in the states. Under to circumstances I think I had the most fun I could have. I found out that I have a lot more family that I thought possible. There were people coming out of the woodwork. There were people that I didn't even know at my mom's funeral (and they were all family). Is that a bad thing?
Well after the funeral stayed a couple of days in Texas: had fun.
Then went up to NC to visit with my brothers and sisters. While I was there I met up with a good friend of mine and made another good friend.
It's been a long time since I updated. Right now I'm back in the states after receiving a red cross message that my mother was killed in a car accident. I really don't know what to do now. She was pretty much all that I had, she held me together. Now I don't have anyone to go visit when I go on leave. My stepdad still hates me and I probably won't get to visit my brothers and sisters.
I have nothing to look foward to anymore.
So, I guess I'll stick with what I know best, "medicine"
Other than that, Iraq still sucks. It took me almost a week to get back to the states for mom's funeral. I met a lot of family that I have never seen before and saw some that I haven't seen since I was 6 or 7.
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